That's what I do, and it has taken me a few years to understand that's not what I am. It's just what I do. Around here, and in my workplace particularly, the two of them merge and for some reason life = work. I have to say before I start dishing it all about work, that I've always been a very lucky girl and I've received the best education possible in the environment I grew up in. It's been very comfortable and everyday I try to remember to thank the universe for everything I have. Anyway, back to the PhD. It's on biochemistry and I'm on my fourth year now. I'm right at the end. One of the reasons I wanted to do this is because writing is becoming a challenge and I do need to put my thoughts and visions out there. So, this thesis writing is becoming a pain in the ass. I feel lost, like I don't know where the compass is pointing out to. I just hate the feeling of not knowing something I should probably know. I've heard people telling me how it's so normal to feel like this, so lost and alone right at the end of everything. So I'm guessing it's a good sign. But what I'm looking for is the direction. And to find it I'm just gonna start writing all about it on this blog, for myself.
For starters, I need to finish writing a paper, it's rather short and it contains a small amount of the results but it's important for my boss and for me, of course to hand it in by the end of next week. So this paper is about some 2D electrophoresis gels I made a couple of years ago. I processed them in Stockholm. This reminds me how much emotion I put into everything, including my results and how personal they can turn into. I mean, this entire work is completely tangled with emotions and everything just brings me back to where I did it, how I did, and more importantly to with whom I did it.....Anyway, I shouldn't be considering any of this but just focusing on the results we obtained. So far on the paper, I've written materials and methods (duh!), a brief introduction that needs lots of references on it and as part of the results we only have the first part.....No discussion yet...I know!! it needs lots of work, so, I'm gonna get to it, before I go to Chía....
